Best Acai Bowl Ever // Plant Based


I have just tasted the best smoothie bowl I have ever made as I welcome a new ingredient. Acai powder is pretty expensive. It’s a super food so it’s super good for you and one of those things I thought I could live without. Now I will never part with these powdered freeze dried acai berries. Delicious and the best berry flavour I have encountered. Here’s the recipe I used. 

Ingredient:

2/3 ripe bananas

1 cup frozen mangoes 

1 tablespoon acai powder

A little water (depending on how thick you like it)

Then blend! Drop in a bowl and add desired toppings! 

PS Make sure you take a bite before you take a photo. Who can wait for that when it’s that tasty! 

VEGAN: Sadness, Hypocrisy, Frustration

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Everyone online seems to be making jokes out of it. Like killing animals is laughable. It’s all okay because we NEED to eat meat, they say. That killing another being that shows the same basic emotions as us is essential for us to live, and it’s funny.

Being around non vegans is hard because you know that most think that you are extreme. That your ‘beliefs’ as they call it, are ridiculous, pointless, silly, unhealthy and based on stupid emotions. That it’s nice that you’ve taken an interest in animal rights but it’s a ridiculous notion and not right for them, as they tell you they could never give up cheese or bacon. People hate change. When all you see is death and suffering but it’s OK to everyone else because it’s behind closed doors and animals don’t really have feelings. Yet many people who eat meat think abortion is wrong, or at least they would never abort a foetus when it has no feelings at all.

So why is it inhumane to have a puppy castrated without anaesthetic but for a piglet it’s fine? Or why is the Chinese dog festival awful and disgusting when those animals are bred for meat, just like pigs and cows? Or why is it wrong to wear fur but not leather, when the cows suffer just as much if not more? The UK sources a lot of it’s leather from countries where the animals have little to no human rights. A holocaust is defined as destruction or slaughter on a mass scale but non vegans will get offended when you say that the mass slaughter of defenceless animals that happens in every second of everyday is OK because of some excuse that makes their life way more important than an animals, even though we are just another species living on this Earth.

So not only do you feel alone, isolated and sad, you also often lose hope for humanity. That’s how I feel anyway. Online I can see so many people doing the right thing. But in reality I see humans causing pain and suffering of animals that ‘don’t matter’ because they were bred to be used by humans. Humans run their lives and the animals have no control. No free will. But they’re just animals, right? That’s how people looked at slavery, and black people not that long ago and we are doing the same to animals who just happen to be different from us.

Yes, we are more intelligent than animals and have a higher understanding of everything so we should realise that we have the ability to see passed the surface.

I don’t think that anyone around me feels like this and so I question whether I am the one who is wrong? But nothing inside of me convinces me that I am wrong. So I question if there is something wrong with me? Should I be like other humans who think that they are better and more important than other species when humans are the only species to cause so much destruction to our planet?

What is wrong with me? Or, what is wrong with everyone else?

 

I Hate The Pill But Have To Take It // Possible Endometriosis, Depression and My Struggle

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Hi everyone! I sure hope you are all doing well because I am not. I am sat in bed at 1 pm on a Saturday afternoon because I feel like I cannot get up. I did get up to pee but came back to bed. I did get up to make a smoothie but, again, I am back in bed. I am writing this to get it off my chest and also to connect with other women who might be having issues themselves.

Oh the joys of being a woman, hey. Or just one with unbalanced hormones. I’ve been trying really hard to be OK but I’ve had enough. Completely and utterly had enough. That’s why all the decisions I am suppose to be making haven’t been made and all the things I need to do haven’t been done. Instead, I have been trying to pretend to be happy and be normal but after having a few days off work, and having no real reason to pretend, I am not getting up and I am not making decisions and I am not doing stuff.

So here’s the story, I started getting really bad periods in 2012. Maybe even earlier but then for sure. That’s when I first started a full time job. Everything changed. I moved out and started working ridiculous amounts of overtime and I wasn’t eating well at all. No fruit or vegetables – just processed sugary crap and lots of dairy. I didn’t know how to look after myself. The previous year I had started taking some new medication for acid reflux and stomach issues after overusing ibuprofen – guys please don’t take it on an empty stomach. One night I was working late and I was in a room full of guys. All of a sudden I got bad cramping and could barely stand. I hobbled to the canteen and sat down and took some paracetomol. Once that had begun working I went back and just said I didn’t feel well and got on with my work. It was just cramps, right?

After that, my periods got gradually worse. My cycle was irregular. Some months it only lasted 21 days. I was low on iron, tired and fed up but I kept going. I started to get really anxious around my period. Worried about it coming; worried about the pain, the blood loss and the fatigue which made it worse. Just over a year later I was in a new job and it was getting increasingly worse until it got to the point where I couldn’t work with that pain. It was severe and the worst pain I’d ever experienced. When it was bad I just curled up in a tense ball and couldn’t move, let alone stand and walk about. I was so bloated and after the cramps went I was left drained and sore. I lost my appetite too and had many other symptoms. My bladder was affected greatly. I was back and forth to the doctors with UTIs. Only the cultures came back either clear or there was too much large particles in my urine to test it. I was fed up and feeling hopeless. The doctor put me on these tablets that are meant to reduce bleeding and clots even though I said I couldn’t take anti-inflammatory medicines. I experienced bad acid reflux after the first couple and stopped taking them. They wanted me to go on the pill but I really didn’t want to.

Yet again, the next period was worse than the previous. I went on holiday abroad for the first time in my life. My period just had to show up then. If it wasn’t for my friends, I wouldn’t have forced myself out of the hotel room. I was eating at different times, which didn’t help and I was so exhausted that I had to go back to the hotel room twice. I was upset and didn’t know why this was happening.

I looked up my symptoms online but this time I didn’t just look up the cramps. I looked up them all. Endometriosis was something I had never heard of but apparently as many as 1 in 10 women may have it. It’s an autoimmune disease and not many doctors really know about it. Basically, endometrial tissue, which lines up the uterus and breaks down during a period, grows in places it shouldn’t and breaks down in the body during a period. No one seems to know how it happens but it causes a great deal of pain, infertility and can only be diagnosed properly by surgery. The endometrial cells can be treated during surgery but it’s only a temporary fix and will most likely grow back. I looked up accounts from women who were experiencing it and indeed I appeared to be going through the same thing. OK so it’s not a diagnosis but to me that it what I have.

At my wits end, a nurse finally convinced me to give the pill a try. I told her about the daily headaches the pill gave me when I was a teenager and my Nan asked me to take it and how it made me feel dizzy and not myself. After trying a couple of different pills and then not doing me any good, I was put on Noriday, a lower dose Progestin pill. It appeared that I was sensitive to oestrogen. Many people believe that too much oestrogen causes endometriosis, as after all it is a hormone imbalance. The first period I got on that pill was on my 24th birthday. I’d just been to Cambridge the previous day and had a lovely meal out with my friends. The next morning I woke up in pain. I rushed to the toilet and my period was very light but it was there. If it was light then why was I in so much pain? But it was my birthday and I was being taken to IKEA so I got up and took some paracetamol in hope that it would improve. After a bad car journey, I prepped myself for getting out and walking around the shop, which I managed to do – slowly and slightly bent forward. Back in the car I cried. I took an uncomfortable bath and then went to bed with a hot water bottle. The next day I spent on the sofa/in bed with a hot water bottle.

The pill wasn’t working, I thought but was told to give it three months. I dreaded the next month to see what hell it was going to bring. It was like I was being tested and no one else seemed to be struggling. I had a few days off work and my boss was sympathetic. One time, I rang in and said I would come in if I could do something sat down all day. Being at work feeling like that was really tough. I was inside this bubble of pain and the people around me were hazy.

Finally my period the next month was so easy to handle. My bladder issues eventually got better – never fully went away but it was an improvement and my anxiety diminished. I had my life back. Or so I thought. After the initial relief, I begun to have other issues. The pill was to blame, of course. I was constantly in a low mood. Some days I had no motivation to do anything and I felt tearful a lot. I didn’t want to be around people and I was getting behind with my Open University work. But the pill was the only relief I had from the hell so I kept taking it. I had no choice.

That was the beginning of last year. I had researched alternatives before and read that a vegan diet might help. I really didn’t think I would have much to eat and blew off the idea. Later in the year, I saw some films and did some research into veganism – I was already a vegetarian and so in February this year I became vegan for ethical reasons. I was feeling good about my decision but I was still so focused on everything bad in my life and in the world. I still hated being on the pill. I wanted off really bad. I read a book called Sweetening the Pill: or How We Got Hooked on Hormonal Birth Control and it just made me more mad. Putting fake hormones into my body was something I never wanted to do as it just felt wrong. Why go against nature? I thought the pill was a great thing as it gave women the ability to take control over her fertility but I was wrong. There are so many long term affects of the pill too and I was concerned.

After eating a vegan diet for a few months, I wondered if I should stop taking the pill and see how things go. What did I have to lose? I felt really good about my decision but I was a little anxious about how I might feel and how my period might be. The anxiety got worse but my mood was lifted. I felt myself again and what I can only describe as brain fog had disappeared. I hadn’t even realised I had it. Everything was clearer, brighter and better. I got up in the morning and had clarity and I didn’t have to encourage myself to get on with life because the alternative was to give up. I spent time in work with a clear head and not one that often made me want to lie down on the floor and cry. OK some things were a little tricky. I had a couple of mood swings, in private of course, and some headaches and some shaking – which I put down to the rise in oestrogen my body was experiencing. My body is so sensitive to change. My period came and I had some mild cramping. It really wasn’t bad. I was relieved but still concerned. The next one came. I was sat at my computer, luckily off work, and I got some pain so had to stop what I was doing and wait for it to pass. It didn’t pass and suddenly got worse. I grabbed some paracetamol and curled up on the sofa. It hurt so bad that I couldn’t move and I couldn’t cry. I just sat there until I plucked up some courage to put the TV on so I could try to focus on something else. The next few days I experienced all the symptoms I had before. Even my bladder was acting out. Great. Once I realised that I had to go back on the pill because there was no way I could take 3/4 days off work a month and go through this again I was gutted. I was so tired and it took me days to get my appetite back. Luckily the next period was pretty much back to normal apart from some bladder discomfort. 

Days later my mood shifted. I was back to being down and now I feel worse as I feel completely helpless. Everything bad is getting me down again and I am going to see my therapist next week after not seeing her for a year and a half. I went to Lincoln yesterday but felt like I was in a dream world. How can I possibly choose between the two? Do I stay miserable for the rest of my life or do I suffer with severe pain and misery for a few days per month. I don’t feel that going to the doctors will help. I’m looking into alternative therapies, naturopathy, diet and fitness as many say these things can help and may even cure it. I don’t feel very hopeful. I am going to try cutting gluten out of my diet as that is meant to have helped many people. However, I don’t know if I have the guts to go through all of this again just to be crushed. Taking the pill is NOT the easy way out. At least not for me.

So here I am in bed. I’m back at work in 4 days so I need to start to pick myself back up for then but not today. I am going to continue watching Friends and not thinking about how bad I feel right now. Please leave comments – I will answer them all. Thanks for reading.

Update: I am still going to try cutting out gluten and upping my exercise. In a few months I am going to try coming off the pill again. I still have a lot of research to do but I am feeling more hopeful right now.

Delicious Vegan Chocolate Breakfast Bowl

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I eat this for breakfast when I want something chocolatey but you can eat it whenever you get chocolate cravings. It contains bananas and cacao powder so it packs lots of goodness. My recipe uses a NutriBulletbut if you have a really powerful blender you can use all frozen bananas and make it more of a nice cream. If you have a weaker blender you might want to not use frozen bananas at all but it tastes better cold.

You will need:

  • 1 banana
  • 2 frozen bananas
  • 1 tbsp cacao powder
  • Choc Shot or Alpo Dark Chocolate Dessert Pot (or alternative choc sauce)

How to:

  1. Blend up the bananas and cacao powder with a splash of water
  2. Pop into a nice bowl
  3. Swirl in the sauce of your choice
  4. Take pretty pictures for Instagram
  5. Eat

You could add some cacao sprinkles or chocolate chips too!

Vegans vs Omnivores // Emotions vs Logic?

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Vegans vs omnivores is not emotions vs logic. Or vice versa. Veganism is logical and here’s why. Animals are suffering. Fact. This isn’t necessary. Fact. So what can we do about it? Become a vegan. That is logical.

Veganism is also about compassion. Animals are suffering and vegans put themselves in their shoes to realise that it is wrong.

Vegans often see the world differently to omnivores – deeper and past societal norms.

Vegans are more empathetic. They don’t understand when people are shown the reality of animal agriculture that they don’t care enough. They don’t understand why they still want to contribute to suffering. Why they views animals lives below humans. Why they only care about keeping themselves alive. Sometimes vegans let these opinions slip out as they are so passionate about the cause. Sometimes it comes out wrong and then all vegans get a bad name. Vegans care about humans too.

Vegans wish they could do more for the world but most bottle their views up as most other humans think that they are extreme. That it is not logical to give a fuck. So they don’t say a word for fear of isolation. But they understand that they have all been brainwashed by society. By the media, hateful others and their families that think that it is bad for you to give up animal products. But they are just the way they are and you are just the way you are – except one of you is ignorant.

But then they get emotional because the world could be helped so much. That less animals would have to suffer, climate change would get better, there would be more resources, more food and less pain and sickness for humanity. So why isn’t the world listening to the emotional and logical side?

Omnivores think it’s illogical emotional bullshit. They think that vegans are self righteous for giving a damn about the world. A few are dicks just as a few omnivores are dicks. But most are kind and polite and have to listen to the hatred that others spew. That veganism is wrong but it’s fine to have others kill meat for you, to have others to take the babies away from their mothers and keep them constantly pregnant until they will be slaughtered so you can keep consuming milk and have others kill one day old male chicks just so you can have a fatty greasy oily fried egg on your toast in the morning. As it’s OK to do this as it’s the circle of life. But vegans think that humans are intelligent and have the capacity for compassion and that is the difference here.

In this world, you are free to give a damn about whatever you want. You don’t have to care about the damage you are doing to this Earth. But you should. Your children’s children’s children might be suffering in the world you helped to destroy. You can stop this. Just look at things differently and stop thinking that veganism is illogical.

As a human being, you have the ability to recognise suffering and do something about it.

Veganism Is Rebellion

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I’ve seen this being talked about on Youtube and social media. It might sound odd to others but to me it makes perfect sense.

We are all tied down by society. Everything we do, from the way we act to the things we buy, is drilled into us by society. The media and news, family, friends and tradition among other things drive the way we behave. There are so many things that I do because society tells me to. I wear makeup, eat 3 meals a day and celebrate my birthday but I don’t need to do these things.

Marriage is one example of something purely created by society. When it was first created, it was about creating alliances between families and the youngsters had no say in the matter. It was not about love. As time passed, it’s value and meaning changed. Society changed it. It is not a natural thing to get married but most people do want to get married. Yet many don’t and are content with just living with their partner as they do not see the point in it. These people are probably asked frequently when they are going to get married and why don’t they want to. These people are often not seen as normal in societies eyes.

People have been eating animal products for a long time. Therefore, to go against this is to go against society norms. It is considered normal to eat animal products but not normal to eat a plant based diet. Most people who are vegan were not born into it. Most came from families that ate animal products and brought their children up to eat them and to believe that they are suppose to be eating them. Once my eyes were opened up to what was really going on. In my opinion, there are no benefits from buying or eating animal products. Animals, our planet and we suffer and as a result of eating what is considered normal by society. Once I found out the truth, I had to stop eating them. If society wants to go ahead and say that killing animals for food is OK then I do not want to be a part of society. I was so mad with society that I decided to look at even more ways to ‘rebel.’

So join me. Let’s all rebel against the unethical race that we are part of. Society can and will change if enough people are willing to stand up for what is right.

Veganism Opened My Eyes To Different Ways Of Living

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My life has changed dramatically since going vegan. Here’s a list of a few things that has happened since. I am certain that most of these things would not have happened if I hadn’t gone vegan.

  • Became healthier and made healthier food choices
  • Started craving ‘bad foods’ less frequently (really think this has something to do with eating more fruit and caring about what I eat more)
  • Realised the power of having less stuff (minimalism)
  • Became more appreciative of the things I do have
  • Became less likely to buy lots of stuff I don’t need
  • Found a form of exercise that I love (cycling)
  • Became more period positive (read Sweetening the Pill: or How We Got Hooked on Hormonal Birth Control look online for more info – you won’t regret it)
  • Became more productive
  • Cut out all pretty much the foods that give me acid reflux
  • Higher appreciation of all things natural

I am sure there are many more!

I am wanting to start making my own shampoo and other beauty products next.

Has anything like this happened to you? Any other things I could try out?