I will begin with today’s Christmas quote. I like this one a lot. It’s a really sweet concept.
‘I wish we could put up some of the Christmas spirit in jars and open a jar of it every month.’ – Harlan Miller
Today was a good day. I was at work and had a good day?! I know, I need to sit down! People were in a good mood. Even I was in a good mood, once I’d woken properly. I think it has a little to do with Christmas but more to do with me thinking more positively and trying not to focus on the bad, without forcing myself to feel happy. Yeah, it’s complicated. I just spoke really nicely to myself and tried to support myself. I was recently getting increasingly stressed, as I often do, and hit a point where I couldn’t take anymore, as I always do, and decided to try something new.
I am also reading a new book called The Celestine Prophecy. I haven’t gotten all that far but it’s really making me think about life and purpose but in a good way and not in the way that leads me to having a weekly existential crisis. I can’t wait to learn more. I am really getting into spirituality. Previously, it was an illogical thing that I didn’t think truly existed but after yoga, meditation, therapy and a lot of reading, I’ve been experiencing things that I haven’t before. Things that make life worth living because there is more than just working to live and suffering. I let myself suffer. It’s becoming very clear to me. It’s something that I didn’t even notice for most of my life. I am actually enjoying getting older. I’m learning more about myself everyday and experiencing new things internally. I’m growing as a person in ways I never thought possible to me. The reasons behind my bad moods are becoming more obvious.
I’m also trying not to dwell on the things I lack in my life. I still have dreams but I am not seeing them as things I don’t have right now but things I can have one day and I’m trying to be okay with where I am now.
So that’s where I am today. Not a very Chrismas-y post but I wanted to share how I am feeling. Five days to go! I am truly excited! x